Wednesday, March 18, 2009


After the apparitions ended on November, 13, 1965, both Conchita and Mari Loli had a locution. Here is the text of a letter written by Loli, dated February 7, 1966:

I had a locution with the Blessed Virgin. She told me I would have to suffer a great deal in this world, that I would be subject to a great many trials, and that that would be the cause of most of my suffering. I asked her to tell me if I would become a nun; she didn't answer me. She told me that she was very pleased that I was here at this boarding school. I asked her if she would return to "speak" with me; she did not reply.
I asked her to give proof of the apparitions to my father so that he would believe in them. She told me that he would believe "very soon," and that everyone else would believe also.
She told me she was very pleased with my sacrifices, but that I must become better each day and do more penance in all things; that I should recite the rosary every day as I have been doing, a devotion which pleases her very much; that she loves us all very much, and that she wants us all to be very good so that we may all be reunited with her in heavenly glory.
--Mari Loli Mazon

There has been much suffering in Loli's life, first with the doubts and then with her illnesses, first she contracted Lupus, a debilitating chronic disease, and then in 2001, she was diagnosed with Fibrosis of the lungs.

On Sunday, February 13, 1966, at the convent school of the Discalced Carmelite Missionaries, as she was making her thanksgiving after receiving Holy Communion, Conchita heard this voice telling her:

"Conchita, you come here to the convent school to prepare yourself to be My spouse and, you say, to follow Me. Do you not say, Conchita, that you seek to do My will? Well, now you are seeking to do yours. Will it be this way all your life? I chose you in the world so that you would remain in it, experiencing the many difficulties that you would encounter because of Me. I want all of this for your sanctification and so that you may offer it for the salvation of the world. You must talk to the world about Mary. Remember, in June, you asked me if you would be a nun. I replied that wherever you were, the cross and suffering would be your lot. I repeat this to you now. Conchita, did you ever hear Me calling you to be My spouse? No, because I have never called you."
I asked Him: "But how does one hear Your call to be a nun?"
He replied: "Don't worry about that. You will not hear it."
I said to Him: "Then, you don't love me, Jesus?"
He answered: "Conchita, you ask Me that? Who redeemed you? Accomplish My will and you will find My love. Examine yourself well. Think more of souls. Do not be concerned about temptations. If you remain faithful yo My love, you will overcome numerous temptations that await you. Understand intelligently what I have said to you, intelligently in a spiritual way. Do not close the eyes of your soul. Do not let yourself be deceived by anyone. Love humility, simplicity. Never think that what you have done is much. Consider what you have to do, not to gain heaven but for the world, so that people may accomplish My divine will. Every soul that prepares itself, that remains disposed to hear Me, shall know what My will is.
"I want to tell you, Conchita, that before the miracle occurs, you will suffer much, for few people will believe you. Your own family will believe that you have deceived them. I am the one who wants all this, as I have already told you, for your sanctification and so that the world may comply with the message. I wish to advise you that the remainder of your life will be a continual suffering. Do not be frightened. In your suffering you will find Me and also Mary whom you love very much."
I asked if in Rome they would also cease to believe, but He did not answer me.
He also told me: "Do not worry yourself with whether people believe or do not believe. I shall do everything. But I will also give you suffering. I will be with whoever suffers for Me."
Conchita Gonzales

The theme of these two locutions is "suffering." And we know that much of it was mental, especially the "deep doubts" and the unbelief of their families.
Rereading these two letters certainly speak to our hearts. Our Lady asks us to be "very good" so that one day we can be united with her in heaven. And Our Lord wants us to be humble and live a simple life, helping others spiritually and temporally. Finally, Our Lord's advice at the end, that we should not worry whether anyone believes in the apparitions, has always been my motto. I spread the messages and tell the story and God will let the seed grow if the people are open to it. But He never forces anyone and if we are in a state of grace, "disposed to hear Jesus," we will know His will for each one of us.
Deacon John